Trying to listen.

This last month has brought on an onslaught of emotion, wondering if we're moving or staying and we why moved in the first place and what the purpose was or still is in us being here. God has been so good in providing us with incredible community, a place to plant our feet and call home. Friends that love us like family-true, good, honest friendships. There are so many things we love about here...reasons to stay that seem to make sense. We have some big decisions ahead of us and are praying for clarity, but its hard. Hard to trust and wait. Trying to listen and be assured that He sees it all and knows it all, but lately I'm having a hard time knowing that deep in my heart. The words of this song seem all too appropriate for now.

Hello Lord, it's me your child
I have a few things on my mind
Right now I'm faced with big decisions
And I'm wondering if you have a minute, cuz
Right now I don't hear so well
And I was wondering if you could speak up

I know that you tore the veil
So I could sit with you in person
And hear what you're saying but
Right now, I just can't hear you.

I don't doubt your sovereignty
I doubt my own ability to
Hear what you're saying
And to do the right thing
And I desperately want to do the right thing
But right now I don't hear so well
And I was wondering if you could speak up

I know that you tore the veil
So I could sit with you in person
And hear what you're saying but
Right now, I just can't hear you.

And somewhere in the back of my mind
I think you are telling me to wait
And though patience has never been mine
Lord, I will wait to hear from you
Oh Lord, I'm waiting on you

Right now I don't hear so well
And I was wondering if you could speak up

I know that you tore the veil
So I could sit with you in person
And hear what you're saying but
Right now, I think you're whispering

By the by, Alice is 6 months old today. Man, does it go fast......